“The best boyfriend you’ll have isn’t the best looking, the funniest, or the richest. It’s the one that makes you feel gorgeous, hilarious, and like a million dollars. He makes sure you know he loves you.”

The first ever surprise party I’ve planned – since a month ago – and I am very very glad that it turned out as good as I wanted it to be.

The sight of your surprised face still lingers in my mind, and it makes me smile.

On Saturday, I woke up early and prepared for my boy’s big day – his 21st birthday! :D Met up with Amanda to pass her the alcohol that I bought for the party the day before, and off I headed down to his place. It was nice to wish my boy Happy Birthday with his just-woke-up-sleepy-face-and-messy-hair. (: Took out my polaroid camera and started taking pictures of his family members to add into the book I made for his 21st birthday – a collection of all the birthday wishes for his 21st! :D

We drove off to Werner’s Oven at Siglap, as recommended by Baby. We ordered quite a feast, but to be honest I think I don’t really know how to appreciate meat like oxtail and lamb. I’m more of a white meat person, and I guess that probably means fish and chicken. I’m sucha bore, but I don’t really fancy beef, lamb or ox. /: I loved the Pork Knuckles though! :D And I ate all of the sauerkraut! :D And because I’m a carbo person, I wiped out all the potato. D: Ohhh, and I love the breaded cheese and desserts too! <3

Werner’s bakery!

After lunch, his Dad drove us all to Marina Bay Sands Hotel because I booked a room to celebrate Jon’s 21st. Apparently, I booked the room for “just the both of us” and I only told him the day before when we were in Bintan. It kinda fulfilled his wish (without me knowing) because he jokingly told Raymond & Co. that he wants to book a room at MBS and swim in the Sky Park when they were here. Now, he can flaunt to them about his experience! And another small wish of his was also to bring his family up to the Sky Park, it was killing two birds with one stone! :D

The Chaus, my second family.

I bought this dress from Agneselle in February and only got to wear it that day. Look at how sad my life is that it deprives me from dressing up! ):

After his family left, and we went back to the room to laze a little while before heading up to the Sky Park for a swim at the infinity pool! (: The room’s rather spacious in my opinion, so I have no complains about it even though March said that the view of the room was quite terrible (since she was the one that helped me to book the room)!

The view at the Sky Park was magnificent! We swam to the edge of the pool and had a bird’s eye view of the entire Singapore City! :D He was telling me how we were looking at the same view from a different angle at Swissotel’s Equinox on my birthday 4 years ago, telling me about Hello Kitty (that’s the name that Jon gave to the Merlion at Fullerton because it looked really small from where we were).

Jon took a picture of this because he said this was supposed to be a proof of me busy messaging on his birthday. Well, I was busy messaging Amanda to plan for his birthday surprise!

Oh gosh, the both of us are so tan from the Bintan trip. ):

He looks like a curious little cat right here. Check out his smile if you haven’t noticed.

After swimming for a while, I went to laze on the bed because 1) I was getting a little lazy and 2) I had to message Amanda to know how’s everything going in the room.

A very random note: TThe weather that day was quite sad! ): It was so cloudy I couldn’t witness a beautiful sunset with Jon. Everything was practically covered by the gloomy clouds. ):

My leng zai. Heehee.

To fill you in, there was actually 2 set of keys to the room and I only took one while Eugene (March’s boyfriend) took the other so that Amanda can grab it from him while we were swimming in the Sky Park. So while Jon & I were swimming (dragging time actually) at the Sky Park, Amanda and Edwin (Jon’s army buddy) – who were the main people that helped me to bring everyone together – were setting up the room for his surprise.

When Amanda told me that almost everything’s ready in the room, I told Jon that I actually made a “dinner reservation” for his birthday at some restaurant so we should get back to change. When we got back, everything in the room was left the way it was before we left. As he was taking the towel/clothes to bathe, I told him I had something for him and opened up the curtains to the balcony where all of his friends hid behind.

He was so shocked and surprised to see all of his friends, more surprised to see that I’ve included his brother and his army friends into this party. His face was so priceless, I wish I captured it on camera. But yes, that was the face that brought huge satisfaction to me. The very face that brought me pure happiness and bliss. (: So instead of having a dinner reservation at a restaurant, we actually ordered Macdonalds takeaway. I mean, it was more of the fun that we were getting from the night! Amanda said that giving the guys good food would be like throwing them into the bin because they just want to fill their stomach, hahaha!

Awesome Orange Vodka Jello made by Amanda! :D

Thanks Babe for helping me with the booking of the room, together with Eugene! Really appreciate it! :D

There was some fireworks going on right outside and we got a perfect view of it. And Jon said that it was because it’s his birthday. -.-” He thinks too highly of himself.

I love you. <3

The customized boob birthday cake as requested by Amanda! It was such a waste that we didn’t finish the cake and it wasn’t exactly cheap. D: I thought it tasted really good though, I like!

His friends forced us to do this.

His army friends. There was supposed to be more but some of them couldn’t turn up, and one had to leave earlier. ):

The Cock Ups.
(Hahaha, they say they are from a cock-up secondary school, hence the name)

Drinking time! Loads of fun and laughter awaits!
I’ve no idea how many cups of alcohol I knocked down because of my clumsiness. But they had to insist that I was high. /:

Indian Poker! I was out to cheat and con everyone heehee. HEY ISN’T THAT THE FUN OF IT? ;D

Hahaha, Darren is a funny dude.

Mingfa’s definitely one of the craziest!

Jon’s closest army buddy, Edwin!
(Quite good looking right! Heehee)

Zong Wen who went to every single camp with Jon when they were in secondary school. Apparently he loves Jon a lot, hence the picture.

My favourite kitty.

Jeremy! Never really knew that Jon’s brother actually fancies drinking quite a tad!

It was damn freaking funny when we took the picture on the right because it was the last polaroid film I’ve got, and apparently we forgot to take a picture of CK and our face went :O then laughed a hell lot about how stupid this was. D:

More of Jon’s friends came over later in the night, and they played more card games. I went to sleep when it was about 2am because I had to face the reality that I’ve got to work the following day. Why does all good things/moments have to come to an end so quickly? ): But oh well, I had my my fair share of fun that night and I bet everyone else did. (:

This party leaves me feeling happier than the surprise party that Jon arranged for me on my 21st. Not that it wasn’t good, but I guess it leaves me feeling happier to see my love happy and pleasantly surprised. (:

Special thanks to: Amanda and Edwin for discussing with me about this party for many nights on MSN and bringing the people together. March and Eugene going through the trouble for booking the room for us on this day! Thank you so much guys! <3

Anyway, on the actual day of my birthday – Wednesday – Jon and I had trouble deciding on whether we should have my birthday lunch at Forlino or Privé since I wanted to visit these places since a while ago! Anyway, we decided on Privé and I really love the view from the restaurant. Looking at the clear blue sky and the yatch being docked pier helped lightened my mood by a whole lot. Would love to revisit this place, but at Privé Cafe & Bakery instead! (:

The restaurant’s rather spacious I liked that. Gives us enough room for some quiet time. (: We had a 3 course meal and it was my treat! Afterall, I am the one’s that is working right now! Kinda felt the pinch for the costly meal though. ): Ever since Jon’s back, I’ve been spending a little more than usual. ): Spent an additional S$150 on getting accessories (faux leather notebook case & a screen protector) just a few days back! D:

So anyway, the food was pretty good and I certainly enjoyed the company of my boy. (: It has been so long, and definitely nice, to be pampering ourselves with good food just like the good old days. (:

My share

Jon’s share

omg so fat. ):

I really love the sky that day. It was so clear and blue, just the way I like it to be. (:

Wanted to catch Eclipse after lunch, but the timings weren’t on our side so we did some window shopping instead. I have a feeling that I’ve lost my ability to shop because nothing really catches my eye, and I gotta admit that I am a little lazy to dig through the piles of clothes to look for something beautiful. ):

Headed back to his place thereafter, and I miss J the cute little pup so much! He’s growing on me, a lot faster than I expected. :D Never knew that I could love a German Shepherd this much. (: It’s definitely nice to see that he’s slowly recognizing Jon as his family even though he still sticks to Jerwin most of the time. I love how he runs to us with his tail wagging so quickly when we opened the door, jumping onto our laps and licking us all over. He’s such a sweetie! <3 Sometimes I even miss him more than I miss Jon, really!

He has such long limbs!

Jon & I had a simple birthday dinner at Keng Eng Kee Seafood with my family. (: It was also my treat as well, and that really makes me feel that a lot of things changes when you are growing up (physically and financially). But oh well, it was really nice having some good family time together, with Jon together too. (: Can never ask for more when you’ve got good food and your loved ones with you. (:

Very important people in my life.

Have been staying over at Jon’s place for the past few days, and I really thank my parents for their great understanding without even complaining about me disappearing from home during this period. But I really love J’s company even though he cause quite a lot of scratches and red marks all over me because of his claws and hyperactive self sometimes. But awwwww, he is just such a sweetheart! <3

My actual birthday was a simple affair, but I was contented. Can never ask for more. (:

Just a few days back, Jon popped by at my work place with a cup of bubble tea & famous amos cookies while bringing Raymond & co who was visiting in Singapore. Shortly after, I received an SMS from my sweetheart…

J: Baby you will marry me right?
K: Woah why did you ask this? It sounds very freaky! (As in, it sounds as though he’s guilty of something and I still have to marry him anyway.)
J: Because you said you’ll marry whoever got you the two things (bubble tea & famous amos).

That message, it made me smile so much to myself. (:

50 months.

Babylove, we made it from one world cup to the other. (:

My idea of a perfect boyfriend is:
Someone who takes candid photos of me. Someone who can play a (or a few) musical instruments [bonus points +10]. Someone who will offer me his food before taking the first bite. Someone who will hug and watch me fall asleep. Someone who hugs me when I cry. Someone who will waste his day with me and calls it a ‘perfect day’. Someone who thinks I am beautiful when I don’t have my make up on. Someone who will stop gaming because I want his attention.

But even when you are not perfect, I’ll still choose you.

This boy appears, and is, a very mature young man in the making. He makes wise decisions that looks at the big picture rather than the small, gives me good advices and company, and is a very patient guy. He doesn’t make his decisions revolve around despite knowing I’ll be upset because he knows its the better path to a better future for us together.

A very fine young man in the making indeed. And if I may add, he’s very manly in my opinion (at least with his character).

But guess what I love most about him? The very fact that my presence tames his manly self and brings out the little girl in him. He’s amazing, but I think I am more amazing. q: But I guess that’s what makes the both of us amazing, to me at least. (:

And my reply?

Heehee, I just love us.

All that I’ve been waiting for.

This boy, he has all the patience in the world to wait for me to receive this mail before he wants to clear the stale air between us over the past few days. And being the extreme opposite, I can never hide my happiness, surprises or even patience from any thing.

My heart; it skipped a beat while opening up this mail. I love trying to figure out what you are writing with your almost-illegible handwriting.

Who says your magic doesn’t work on me any more? Your magic works on me, even despite knowing what’s coming. It always does.

Thank you for bringing that smile on my face, and the patience you have for me.

“To me, true love is the sweetest thing in life. That’s why we’re all either in love or looking for love. Sometimes you have to work for it – especially when life gets in the way – but I believe true, deep love is always worth fighting for.”

“You don’t love someone because they’re perfect. You love them inspite of the fact that they are not.”

Even till now, I can’t believe I am in love with my primary school mate. The guy I used to find really annoying, the guy whom I couldn’t have a conversation of any longer than 5 sentences. I remembered that annoying chubby little boy. But a chubby boy with that charming smile. It’s almost 11 years since I knew you. (And wow, I’m impressed!)

Everything’s so different now.

Your voice is my therapy to this crazy life, you bring me away from reality of madness into a world of our own where nothing mattered. You picked me up from the lowest point in my life, and taught me what true love was. I thought it only existed in fairy tales, but it is indeed so forgiving and unconditional.

I remembered how I told you I’ve changed, and am probably not the same girl you used to love, but you told me you’ll still love me all the same no matter how much I’ve changed. You were so tolerant with me, so willing to stand by me firmly and worked out our differences put together, and you loved me all the same despite all that we’ve been through together. (Long-distance relationship is no joke, really.) The way you called me your wife in chinese/cantonese, either because you missed me terribly or when you’re trying to gain my pity after committing a mistake. The way you told me I’m a part of your family, and my family is also yours. The way I have a corner for your clothes in my wardrobe, and I own a corner in yours too. The way both of us work so hard in our studies/work, with the hope to start our family by the age of 26. The ways you always try to make me happy. The investments we have made for our future (our wedding).

The past four years have been exciting, and it’s mostly because of you. We’ve travelled to quite a few different places together, and have developed in the interest of travelling and eating together. We talked, laughed, fought, cried, and disagreed in our almost-everyday-long-distance phone calls, our love never died.

As an individual, we can survive just fine without the physical presence of each other. But there’s a burning, blasting flame in our love that  keeps me going, and the same for you. You’ve no idea how wide my grin can be when you tell me about how you tell your friends the confidence you have in our relationship. It’s the same thing for me too. I guess that literally justifies the quote that says “You don’t marry the one you can’t live without, but the one that you can live without by choosing not to.”

Four years, and I still find myself falling in love with you every single time. I love the way you love me, I love the way we are. You turned me into a hopeless romantic. But if that’s what makes me happy, I’ll be the a fool for you.

Can never be more thankful to have you in my life, really. An angel. A God-sent. Thank you for putting up with me all these years.

This entire entry can’t even express how half of how I feel. Sometimes I just wish that my heart was a thumb drive, then I can hand it over to you so you can read through every single thing.

Your promise back in 2006, on Friendster.

‘Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it’s built to last.

Happy 4th year Baby love.

School of Chemical & Life Sciences Annual Dinner & Dance 2010

Yesterday was the last event of my journey in poly, and that refers to the Annual D&D (guess I can also call this a prom)! :D Didn’t regret going for it because it was so fun seeing everyone dress up and looking all so glamorous! :D I invited the Jinglan, Peiyu, Ziwei and Yuli to my place to dress up and prepare for the dinner together. But apparently the earliest (Jinglan) was an hour late from the meeting time, so you can guess how late the rest were from there. Hahaha. But I guess it was fun! Some girly time dressing and putting on our make up together. :D Mommy helped me with my make up a little and she lent me the falsies she bought which wasn’t used before, and I’ve gotta say that falsies has got to be the hardest thing to do for make up! :O Doesn’t feel that it really changes my look a lot though. All I really need is for my (real) lashes to be more curled! /: Wore the blue dress I got from the Melbourne trip last year, and it’s the first time I am wearing it. What if I said that I bought this dress a year ago just for this event? I am actually quite serious about this, y’know? q: My accessories – Diva earrings & Tiffany bracelet – are both gifts from Jon! See Baby, I carry you with me everywhere I go heehee. ;) The Diva earrings in particular was a gift from Jon about 3 years back when I was still in St. Margaret’s! It has been with me for so long already. From my very first prom to second (which is probably the last too) and it’s still serving me well. (: Pinned up my hair because I have no idea what else I could possibly. /:

Mommy dearest!

We took a cab down to Conrad International, and then started camwhoring while waiting for the others to arrive! And… Matt got Pei Yu a stalk of sunflower, awwww so sweet and nice! (: Anyway, I was so glad that I didn’t died on my killer heels for the night! :D

On the cab!

The theme for the D&D was Casino, and though I thought it was a little lame…. but bring on the vices! The food served was really good, except that it came with stingy portions! /: I even ate the celery that was served even though I hated celeries. Maybe it’s a blessing in disguise that I’m eating my greens! (: Love the abalone soup with mushrooms (double yum)! And I was eating, I thought that afterall perhaps my favourite cuisine would still be chinese food. (:

And it makes me sad how I never ever won anything in any lucky draw before! ): And apparently the second prize enticed me more than the first. iPod Touch > XBOX360! Girls camwhored for really long in the toilet while the guys just sat outside and waited for us to be done. It was damn funny how bored their faces were when we were out.

Had a really awesome prom to end of my journey in poly, though it would have been a lot more fun with the presence of some others too. But on a terribly sad note, I feel utterly disgusting looking at how fat I am in the pictures. ): I need to shed the fats seriously. Gotta stop thinking about it and work on it! My tummy seems to be very determined to be taking permanent residence ugh. I just wanna get rid of my tummy and have more toned legs and arms and I’ll be satisfied. Alright, that basically just sounded like I need an entire make over for myself. ): Oh… and my hair is damn screwed up. As dry as the desert. Speaking of which, there are two non-work-related thing I wish to achieve when I start working: To cook my own packed lunch to work (not everyday though) and work out frequently. I really wish to be more discipline and bring out the domesticated self in me. Not forgetting that by cooking my own packed lunch I can save some money and opt for a healthier meal! And of course, I’ll never forget this: Happy 47th month Mr Silly. Haven’t called you this in about 3 years ago, and it still brings back loads of memories. Really love the way you reminded me that today’s the 7th in the very first phone call we had in the late afternoon. The voice you had that sounded as though I forgotten about it entirely. Priceless. I love you my best friend and boyfriend. <3

And we’re still madly in love with each other.

We amaze me.

In all, I think I have gotta apologise for Jon for being a totally different person. Felt like I was killing myself inside with all that I was going through inside me, and was behaving like a changed person. Didn’t have any direction where I was heading towards, I was like a living zombie. A zombie not only because I have been so tired and worn out physically, but because I seemed to have lost the drive in me (Sook Fung calls this the pre-graduation syndrome). We stopped talking for 2 days, not because of cold war or anything of that sort, but to just settle both our thoughts and have some time of our own. And thank you for making the first move, which picked me up big time.

I’ve been thinking, and realised that at the end of the day, you’re still the one I visualised to be holding hands while walking in a park and beach by a slow and lazy day, the one who will work with me to raise my kids together with. A good whole 2 hours odd on the phone you last night, though I was so tired I totally knocked out the moment the call ended. Thank you for getting me out of this mess I was in. I really needed that.

Sorry for causing you to ponder about us. I promise I’ll make this long-distance relationship work.

I guess I gotta always remember that when this very day comes, all bad will be flooded and die along with your love.

You always have a way to make my ugliness seem beautiful in you.

Happy 46th.

It’s exactly a week since you’ve been gone, and I think I am surviving very well till this very moment. Perhaps it’s because we still talk on the phone every day without fail, dropping random messages and calls to each other every now and then. Thanks Baby, for making this a lot easier for me. (:

I hope 6 months will pass in a blink of an eye.

Had a MSN conversation with Amanda yesterday evening, and I really enjoyed the entire conversation. It was quite funny considering the direction of where the conversation went and ended. Couldn’t stop laughing and smiling the whole time! She’s one girl that turned out to be quite close with. I, myself, am surprised with that too, considering my first impression of her and stuff. In addition, I get to know all the interesting stories from Jon’s secondary school life. Maybe a nightmare to him, but definitely amusing for me! q: Really need to meet this girl for some girly time out together soon!

And my Soulmate too! We’ve been so busy with our own stuff we haven’t even met up since I came back from HK. ): But we had a great, albeit short, MSN convo tonight laughing and ranting about YouTube videos! We even came up with some plans to carry out together really soon! Hopefully it’d be carried out in full, and it’d be so exciting! :D Can’t wait to meet up with my other sister on Sunday! :D

And like I’ve said before, last Saturday marked the end of the exciting life, and now I’m back to school with loads of deadlines coming up. So much so I’ve decided not to work for this week just to work on my FYP and projects. I really wanted to work though! Gotta recuperate the money I’ve spent during the HK trip. Not forgetting that I’m trying to be financially independent as well; and that means paying of my own bills and allowances, if possible for the latter. /: It’s not surprising that as we all grow older, financial burdens will start to set in. It’s never to late to start saving, so I’m currently on a saving spree right now. Too much things lined up in the near future.

Gotta work on my FYP report and I really hate statistics big time ugh. ): FYP’s one big reason why I can’t wait for graduation to arrive as soon as possible. Haven’t been having enough rest for the past few days either, though I’ve been hitting the sack before 12am. I have absolutely no idea what’s draining me out so much. All I’m asking for is for me to get through the last term in school smoothly.

6 more weeks till the last week of school.

How often do I get to whisper into your ear, giving you a tight hug while you’re sound asleep on the 7th the month? It always feels good having you beside me on a special day with your beyond-special company. (:

Today was a simple affair, with just a celebratory dinner in-lieu to our monthsary. A really awesome Japanese Restaurant at a secluded corner of Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. It serves damn awesome maki and just two sets of it left the both of us feeling stuffed! We wanted to order another maki that uses mango as a wrap, but we were too damn full! I was glad to ask Jon not to order 3 makis at a go, if not it’d be quite a waste of money. There’s always a next time! (: Gotta admit that it isn’t cheap though. A plate of maki cost us about $15, but there was a 10% for all ala carte items! (:  The both of us left feeling really satisfied.

Enoki Teppan! Absolutely love mushrooms! This is probably one of the best golden mushroom dish I’ve ever tried! Jon agrees too. Way too delectable! It’s a must try dish! Oh, and since it comes in a hot plate, the fish flakes on the dishes were moving and it mimics the action of worms pretty much. Ewwww, so scary looking. But whatever, it tastes damn good!

Spider Maki! Seasme overload with soft shell crab filling!

Dragon Maki. Unagi & Avocado, with fresh prawn for its filling!

Ishikawa Japanese Restaurant Pte Ltd
170 Upper Bukit Timah Road
Bukit Timah Shopping Centre, B2-14
Singapore 588179
Tel: 64660281

It’s already the 44th month together. Both of us are, still, very madly and deeply in love with each other. So much so that sometimes it just feels like we are still in our honeymoon period. Every now and then, Jon would look at me and then say “I can’t believe I’m dating my primary school friend. Should have just dated you all the way back then.” We’d still share loads of laughter together, turning our beds into a wrestling ring, poke fun and bully each other.

All in the name of Love.

Perhaps we don’t do things like saying “I love you” and “I miss you” to each other every single time, but our relationship is far beyond this. Our imperfections together make this relationship perfect. We fight, we cry, and we strive together, for that one future that we want to work towards to. Jon & I have been planning quite a bit for our future, and the responsibilities – financially to be exact – are slowly giving us the burden and strain. ):

Christmas is one of my favourite festive seasons of the year, and having a fancy dinner seems like one of the best way to celebrate it together with Jon. Now we’ve changed our plans. We’re going to do groceries shopping and whip up a scrumptious meal at home instead, and we won’t be getting any gifts for each other. All because we want to save for our future. Furthermore, we already have made a booking at Prive for our New Year’s Eve dinner, which I think will cost quite a bit too.

I guess afterall I’d enjoy any special days as long as I’ve Jon beside me. We’d have our own ways of making these days special for each other without spending much. Welcome to the world of adulthood. Welcome to the world of pulling-your-hair-because-of-money. Cheers to our future, Baby! It’s going to be tough, but like I said, as long as I’ve you by my side even the impossible seems a lot easier to handle.

I love you sweetheart. But I’m sorry, because this is definitely an understatement.

3 years 7 months.

Thank you for making me laugh, when you get so happy as I told you how you never fail (as in 100%) to traumatize me in my dreams nightmares.
Thank you for making me high when you cringe as I suggested to go for blood donation, just because of your haemophobia.
Thank you for all the random calls you give me throughout the days, though some of them carry the intention to disgust and irk me.
Thank you for always being there for me, despite the miles that separated us.
Thank you for charging me in with energy at the end of a very bleak day, just with you running through my mind.

Thank you for working hard for our future.

I may not be the most ideal girlfriend out there. I get temperamental & unreasonable at times, yet you have your way with me. Really kudos to you for that my dear! You’re probably the only one out there that’s ever able to tolerate my nonsense so unconditionally. The past one month was such a rough one for us, probably resulted from me and I’m so sorry for behaving as though I am a princess. Thank God it’s you. Bet no one else would ever hang on to me like you do.

When I think of how a perfect relationship is, the road still leads me back to you. We are amazing. You are amazing. I love you so much my Baby dearest, my husband-to-be. (:

18 days till you’re back. 18 days till I can be back in the warmest embrace.

1. It’s going to be the last semester of my poly education – and it may also be the end of a student’s life for me, but not too sure about it either – so I thought it’d be good to just note down the last phase of my schooling life.
2. I’m probably too excited about this!

I don’t really know how to create layouts/themes for my wordpress blog, unlike blogger where I can do so much more! But for now, I’m satisfied that I manage to customize pre-made laouts to what it currently looks like now! Took me quite a while, and I think I deserve a pat on my back! (:

That aside, the past 2 weeks has been really dramatic.

For the first time, Jon & I fell out (quite major I’d say) twice in 2 weeks. Never once did we fall out like this twice in such a short time. It was so bleak, and we almost broke up. (You can probably think how bad it was, since breaking up is something that has never ever came across the both of us for the past 3 years.) There was a point of confusion, uncertainty and insecurity that was flooding through us. And then suddenly everything that was planned for the future was overwhelmed by a thick fog and I couldn’t see what’s ahead.

Until a few days back, when we had a long talk over the phone. I never knew that you had actually gave our future so much thought. I always thought that I’m the only one who did so, but it turns out that you did too. And I am starting to think that maybe you thought about it more than I do. We have a very bright future together. Everything fits properly and I’m looking forward to that second phase of my life.

Love is not just about making each other happy, feeling all diabetic about each other’s embrace, actions and words. It requires so much determination (never-to-give-up attitude), patience, compromising, and willingness to accept each other’s ugly self and flaws. It’s a demanding game.

Sorry for letting you go through that phase, sorry for letting you break down emotionally, sorry for making you feel so hurt about things that I’ve said. But thank you for letting my insecurities disappear inspite of all these.

That phone call made me realise so much. There was more than what I could see and feel. It was so much deeper. Like I said, if we got through this together, we’d be stronger than ever. And look where we are right now! Stronger, tougher. Our bond is so strong I don’t even know how to put it in words. They’re all going to turn out as an understatement.

I’ve said it a million times, but I will still say it. Jonathan Chau, you are indeed the greatest blessing of all time, of my life. Thank you for loving me the way you do.

I don’t even know why I am still counting the months since we got together. It’s never gonna end, isn’t it?
I love you always, all ways.

Happy 42nd.