I always thought that ever since Jon’s recent departure, I’ve learnt to deal with the distance and learnt how to suppress missing him. But tonight, I found that this weakness of mine is crawling back.
And tonight, I feel so alone in this darkness.
I’m missing this boy too much. It gets really crazy on my side when all I really want to be is by his side and nothing more. His voice over the phone, although it’s on a every day basis, doesn’t fills this emptiness in me. When I’m with him, the world’s such a wonderful place. It is Wonderful. Even the worst thing that can ever happen will be a lot easier with him around.
Does any one even realise how dead I am on the inside right now? Working every day away because it promises that July will arrive a lot faster. In a blink of an eye, it’s already March. 3 months has passed, 4 more to go. Thank you, to whoever kept me company throughout this whole period.
But, tonight’s very unbearable for me.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without.
I just need you now.