It’s the substance that we have
I always thought that ever since Jon’s recent departure, I’ve learnt to deal with the distance and learnt how to suppress missing him. But tonight, I found that this weakness of mine is crawling back.
And tonight, I feel so alone in this darkness.
I’m missing this boy too much. It gets really crazy on my side when all I really want to be is by his side and nothing more. His voice over the phone, although it’s on a every day basis, doesn’t fills this emptiness in me. When I’m with him, the world’s such a wonderful place. It is Wonderful. Even the worst thing that can ever happen will be a lot easier with him around.
Does any one even realise how dead I am on the inside right now? Working every day away because it promises that July will arrive a lot faster. In a blink of an eye, it’s already March. 3 months has passed, 4 more to go. Thank you, to whoever kept me company throughout this whole period.
But, tonight’s very unbearable for me.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
March 4th, 2010 at 01:05
stay strong girl! when all these are over, you’re gonna enjoy (:
March 4th, 2010 at 01:36
aww babe :( hate to see you this way. my smelly shoulder is here if u need one! <333
March 4th, 2010 at 03:07
eh sorry to spoil the mood here but because I love you I HAVE TO SHARE THIS WITH YOU
(MUST HAVE MUTUAL FRIENDS THEN CAN SEE THE PICTURE, GOOD IF YOU HAVE JULIUS AS A FRIEND)
http://www.facebook.com/#!/profile.php?id=573142272&ref=ts
.. IMBA FACE AND MUSCLES. PERFECT SPECIMEN OF A HUMAN BEING.
Hi chau.
March 4th, 2010 at 04:26
I have your back. And chau’s. I’m not going through a good time now either, but we can hug together and cry/laugh together.
March 4th, 2010 at 08:41
Shan, Thanks Babe. I know that too, but sometimes it’s just difficult to get through the days. ):
Estella, Thanks Honey. I will cry on your smelly shoulder if I need one. But I need your pretty face to cheer me up and bring me to shop! q:
Amanda, Did you like… stalk his friends or something? Hahaha. Not too bad lah, not my definition of perfect though! My idea of perfect is…. Jon. Hahahaha! Anyway, I need this even if it means that we are going to cry and laugh like whores together. ):
LOVE,
March 4th, 2010 at 11:37
Hey baby love. I love you very much. This 3 months passed very fast. I believe the next 4 will be too. In no time i will be by your side to embrace you. It saddens me to see you this way. But i’m not worried, because you have great friends around you all the time :D
Hi Amanda :)
March 4th, 2010 at 14:29
Jon, You know I’d always want you by my side, even if it’s just one week. I really hope that the next 4 months will pass really quickly. ):
LOVE,