It’s the substance that we have

Reaching for the phone ‘cuz I can’t fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

I always thought that ever since Jon’s recent departure, I’ve learnt to deal with the distance and learnt how to suppress missing him. But tonight, I found that this weakness of mine is crawling back.

And tonight, I feel so alone in this darkness.

I’m missing this boy too much. It gets really crazy on my side when all I really want to be is by his side and nothing more. His voice over the phone, although it’s on a every day basis, doesn’t fills this emptiness in me. When I’m with him, the world’s such a wonderful place. It is Wonderful. Even the worst thing that can ever happen will be a lot easier with him around.

Does any one even realise how dead I am on the inside right now? Working every day away because it promises that July will arrive a lot faster. In a blink of an eye, it’s already March. 3 months has passed, 4 more to go. Thank you, to whoever kept me company throughout this whole period.

But, tonight’s very unbearable for me.

It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without.
I just need you now.

7 thoughts on “It’s the substance that we have

  1. aww babe :( hate to see you this way. my smelly shoulder is here if u need one! <333

  2. I have your back. And chau’s. I’m not going through a good time now either, but we can hug together and cry/laugh together.

  3. Shan, Thanks Babe. I know that too, but sometimes it’s just difficult to get through the days. ):

    Estella, Thanks Honey. I will cry on your smelly shoulder if I need one. But I need your pretty face to cheer me up and bring me to shop! q:

    Amanda, Did you like… stalk his friends or something? Hahaha. Not too bad lah, not my definition of perfect though! My idea of perfect is…. Jon. Hahahaha! Anyway, I need this even if it means that we are going to cry and laugh like whores together. ):

    LOVE,

  4. Hey baby love. I love you very much. This 3 months passed very fast. I believe the next 4 will be too. In no time i will be by your side to embrace you. It saddens me to see you this way. But i’m not worried, because you have great friends around you all the time :D

    Hi Amanda :)

  5. Jon, You know I’d always want you by my side, even if it’s just one week. I really hope that the next 4 months will pass really quickly. ):

    LOVE,

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