A brand new blog, a brand new start. Took me a lot of time to actually decided to get this blog. I really couldn’t let go of my archives in the previous blog, so it took me a while to do so. I know it’s October, and it’s in the middle of nowhere, but I brought foward the date to shift my blog in 2010 to now. Many reasons for it:

1. It’s going to be the last semester of my poly education – and it may also be the end of a student’s life for me, but not too sure about it either – so I thought it’d be good to just note down the last phase of my schooling life.
2. I’m probably too excited about this!

I don’t really know how to create layouts/themes for my wordpress blog, unlike blogger where I can do so much more! But for now, I’m satisfied that I manage to customize pre-made laouts to what it currently looks like now! Took me quite a while, and I think I deserve a pat on my back! (:

That aside, the past 2 weeks has been really dramatic.

For the first time, Jon & I fell out (quite major I’d say) twice in 2 weeks. Never once did we fall out like this twice in such a short time. It was so bleak, and we almost broke up. (You can probably think how bad it was, since breaking up is something that has never ever came across the both of us for the past 3 years.) There was a point of confusion, uncertainty and insecurity that was flooding through us. And then suddenly everything that was planned for the future was overwhelmed by a thick fog and I couldn’t see what’s ahead.

Until a few days back, when we had a long talk over the phone. I never knew that you had actually gave our future so much thought. I always thought that I’m the only one who did so, but it turns out that you did too. And I am starting to think that maybe you thought about it more than I do. We have a very bright future together. Everything fits properly and I’m looking forward to that second phase of my life.

Love is not just about making each other happy, feeling all diabetic about each other’s embrace, actions and words. It requires so much determination (never-to-give-up attitude), patience, compromising, and willingness to accept each other’s ugly self and flaws. It’s a demanding game.

Sorry for letting you go through that phase, sorry for letting you break down emotionally, sorry for making you feel so hurt about things that I’ve said. But thank you for letting my insecurities disappear inspite of all these.

That phone call made me realise so much. There was more than what I could see and feel. It was so much deeper. Like I said, if we got through this together, we’d be stronger than ever. And look where we are right now! Stronger, tougher. Our bond is so strong I don’t even know how to put it in words. They’re all going to turn out as an understatement.

I’ve said it a million times, but I will still say it. Jonathan Chau, you are indeed the greatest blessing of all time, of my life. Thank you for loving me the way you do.

I don’t even know why I am still counting the months since we got together. It’s never gonna end, isn’t it?
I love you always, all ways.

Happy 42nd.